Ever stays red

Soooo tonight my favorite band is playing(yea the title). there drummer is extremely amazing. and they are probably the most outspoken band for Jesus that i have ever had the chance to meet and interact with (really unshakable faith!!!!). they have been playing music for 5 or six years now? and living out of a red van. touring this country and many other countries simply sharing the love of our creator and savior. they have never been tied to record label so they have been able to truly do the will of God. so yea looking forward to a night of Worship and creativity.

hopefully i can soak it all in.......

p.s. dont ride motorcycle's in the rain :(

be aware....

be aware....
soooo today is 4years that my madre has been departed. gunna send up some ballons to her to say hi.... and i just wanted to let everyone know that life isnt guaranteed. we arent guaranteed a 2moro so really watch the way you treat people. i know im not the best example of that and i really do some messed up things sometimes but those things i regret. i would like to take sometime to thank some people. first i would like to thank Jesus Christ for all the crap he has to put up with, that comes from me and for also loving me enough to die a horrible and blameless death you are simply amazing (minuse the simply part:) also andrew who has been my best bud for a long time and who was actually there when the news of my mom came about . (you have honestly been there through it all ) megan, for being one of the most real and authentic ladies i know ( you have also been through it all, always keep that authenticity it will get you a long way with God ) dusty, we have had some of the same feelings about alot of things in life and you have always been there to go through those hardships with me. Morgan your just an awesome friend and i love the time i get to share with you ( even if most of it is working out )and mattie a guy who is always there to talk to ,honestly whenever i need someone to talk to it seems like your right there (hopefully we will go snowboading again soon) and alot of other people God has honestly put amazing people in my life and i love all of them and would take a bullet for all of you! tell someone you care about them cuz i learned the hard way that you might not get to the next day..... love ya in straight jacket fashion Ry

Beware of the Dog

I don't know how many of you have seen the movie Lord of War but i have to say, first it was an eye opener. the basic synopsis of the movie is Nicholas Cage is an arms dealer (which means he sells guns). He doesn't discriminate in the movie AT ALL he sells guns to every nation even nations that are at war with his own country. He actually says in one scene and i quote "I realize now that people go into the restaurant business because people will always need to eat, just like people will always need guns to kill other people", yea i know thats good that he made that connection right?...... anyways there was another quote that really stuck out to me because whenever i watch movies i like to find things that relate to God. his brother in the movie ( which is played by jared leto the lead singer from 30 seconds to mars, a great band) is a cook at their parents restaurant. one day nicholas cage goes to visit his brother at the restaurant and their is a sign on the wall that says, BEWARE OF THE DOG. to which Nicholas Cage says "did you get a dog"to which his brother says " no thats up there to remind to not wanna f*!$ everything that walks, or do every drug possible, reminds me to more". pretty self explanatory but awesome form of straight jacket fashion, we should all beware of the dog (animalistic) side in all of us. It separates us from God and puts us in charge and hurts our relationship with God because he didn't create us to be animals he created us above that to be rational and seek his guidance in our choices. just a thought though take it for what its worth to you and have a nice day.........and BEWARE OF THE DOG.!

so................

So today i woke up early and got a head start on the day. i stopped by starbucks and got a strawberry lemonade blended( which is my favorite, cuz coffee sucks), after that i went to guitar center to check out some drum kits which im falling deeply in love with ludwig classic X jazz kit in a peach yellow finish (someday it will mine) theres also a new brand of cymbols out that are called Meinyl cymbols and they sound frigen amazing i actually like them better than the custom z by zildgen cymbols. and i priced live 808 pads for the new building and a sampling pad which altogether would run me around 850$ for a meteokre setup...... most of you probably dont care about the drum stuff im talking about, but it i do. it makes me all giddy inside. so you should care cuz i care ha. anyways now im home, hafta work at two(work sucks),hopefully some divine intervention from God would happen and a huge money tree would grow in my backyard (i would probably end up asking for more anyways ha)lqtm (laugh quietly to myself ,ha thanks demetri martin your a riot!). soooooo... yea............ ummmmmmmmm cool i will finish this off later (but if i dont,than dont worry it means nothing else interesting took place for the remander of my day)

p.s. note to self i must stop with the jack before writing posts?????>>>.......

your in straight jacket fashion always, ryan (how do you get outta this thing grrrrrrrrrr.......??????).

FINDING A PIECE TO THE PUzzLE...

for the longest time i have asked God a question, and that question is this. God, drumming what is it essentially to your kingdom? why do i do it (other than the fact that i can worship you by giving my time and efforts and practice for it to you, and the end product(sundays) are always a great time for the words to sink in and for me to give an all out effort of reverence in your name). I have been asking this question for a little over a year now and it finally sunk in the other day at practice. there are many key essentials to a band, like a singer (obvious role, skill in the prettyness of voice and keys area, guitarist(rythum to add flow to song, lead; to give the listener some nice tweaks for the ear drum to sooth the cerebellum)! bass guitar(make a great pop, make the crowd bounce the foot up in down in good timing). now drums my part, ding ding ding. timming a drummer is essentially the backbone of any band. and a good drummer has perfect timming. i noticed that drumming can rrelate to God in that aspect that God has perfect timming on whatever he does. its weird since i have figured this out i am alot more relaxed behind the kit and things are comming easier and timming is better still not perfect but its something to strive for.....:)

your in the straight jacket, ryan

having faith....?????

first off let me start this blog off by saying happy new year....!!!! i just got done watching lsu beat my buckeyes (very sad ). i did realize something about myself in the last 3 or 4hrs. what i learned was im getting better. getting better at not storing my faith into earthly things... for the longest time a have loved the ohio state buckeyes. but i realized that its just a game life isnt going to stop tommorrow b ecause ohio state lost (although if you talk to my dad he might tell you otherwise). honestly for the longest time i have put an immense amount of faith into, sports, my perception, girls, relationships... and im always just waiting for the next thing to store my faith in and let my heart get crushed... but its funny cuz lately i have been really encouraged by God that he will provide the next best thing in my life... this is a new thing for me and i pray that i will be reminded in the morning to store faith in something eternal and not something mortal? some scriputure that helped get me started on this is Romans 1:17 For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: "the righteous will live by faith."

your in straight jacket fashion,ryan

all i want for Christmas

what do i want for Christmas.? well i have thought long and hard about what i want for Christmas and i have come up with something! i want my mom for Christmas i realized how much i really missed her(evryday) but especiallly yesterday when i visited morgans house and was talking with her mom about random things... i missed the way i used to antagonise my mom, just to see her laugh(which usually ended up with her beating me up ha) or talking to the goat about how much mr.pig would eat and where he put all of that food (the goat always said he would explode oneday from eating sooo much food ha)or the way she would stick up for anyone on our hockey team and almost get in fights at tournaments (with girls that literally outweighed her by a couple hundred pounds for some reason i think her fighting spirit got passed down to me when she died ha.)but honestly i hurt today thinking about it! why does someone live to be a hundred ? and someone else 42? seriously i wanna open presents with my mom one more time or even just give her a hug. and i could definatly use her advise about some events that have taken place lately!!! anyways i hope she know that i love her and i miss you

i wrote this poem awhile ago for you goatie merry Christmas!!!

into the other side (mom)


What happened yesterday

when my heart gave way?

No air inside,no eyes to see your life is gone!

today im holding the hand of God, finally im truly alive, my feet no longer numb!!!

i've made it home

dear mom,

did it hurt when you passed into the other side? did it hurt when you heard me lie? did you fall on your knees ? tell me could you speak of anything, when he took your hand, when he wiped away your tears? are your feet no longer numb?

i wanna say goodbye but i know its not goodbye? its just the start

one day i will see you again

one day he will bring me home

i willl finally be alive!!

finally you have started your life.......